Dear Present Me,
It’s been a while since you talked to yourself. You’ve been a bit of a mess lately. Don’t know what you’re doing at all, do you? Yeah, it’s okay. I thought it was time for a much awaited self talk.
I know the pressure and stress is a lot and that you’ve been trying your best to cope with it but you’re kind of not fairing well these days. Sitting in your room for hours with trying to cram everything at once won’t help you much. You need to calm down a bit. You need to talk to people. You need to make them understand what you’re going through. I know you tried but they took it too casually. I know but try again.
Your mind is working too fast, for you to figure it all out. You’re letting yourself be ruled by fears. The insistent fear of not scoring well is crippling you. The fear of disappointing people is holding you back. Though you won’t admit to this, but you’re also a bit afraid to step into the world. You’ve had that security and familiarity for so long that you’re afraid that it’s all gonna come crashing down. It’s not.
The greater your storm, the brighter your rainbow, remember? The storm will pass when you least expect it to. And your rainbow will shine with the brightest of colours.
As always you’re thinking too much. Give yourself a break. You don’t have to do everything at once, neither will you be able to do it. Calm down.
Let’s just take it one step at a time.
You’re stronger that you think you are
I would know.
Your Future Self